Other days not so much

My heart is sad. I know that I continue to hurt people with my stance against Christmas. How can I explain? What can I possible do to "make" anyone understand? I don't want to make anyone understand, because then it's not the Father who has revealed but I. I am un "friended" on facebook and "yelled" at in email's, which really, I kind of expected, but in my heart that is frail, a tear drops. Some days I am confident, other days not so much. I find comfort in Psalm 91 and knowing others are walking along the same path. I find comfort in knowing my Messiah walked a lonely walk too.

I have a Dream

I have a dream. I dream that soon we will watch the King of Kings touch his foot on the Mount of Olives. I have a dream that I with my eyes I will witness his return: that the groom will come to claim his bride. Desires my heart to hear his voice speak directly to me. Like the song..."will I sing Hallelujah or will I be able to speak at all".

Come out of her my people...come prepare yourself for his return. Do not be caught unprepared.

Wonderful Sabbath

I've come to realize that I'm holding back. I have decided that I will no longer tip toe around when it comes to the biblical Sabbath. Usually in conversations with believers, I will say that I celebrate the Sabbath on Saturday, as if there is an option. I have decided that I will no longer use this phrase. I will now use the phrase "the biblical Sabbath". I celebrate the Biblical sabbath, as apposed to the man-made sabbath. I love having a day that I am commanded by the Creator, the King of Kings to rest, cease from labour, and worship him, YHVH.

I'd much rather follow His commands, than man-made commands. My prayers are that all of YHVH's children will return back home to obey the commandments of YHVH.

Please investigate the origins of Sunday worship. Even the Catholic Catechism teaches that the biblical Sabbath is Saturday. The Catholic catechism teaches that the church worships on the "eighth" day called by the church the "Lord's day". The day of the Lord's resurrection, Sunday. While I don't agree Yeshua rose on Sunday, I think He rose on Sabbath, the seventh day I don't want to address this issue here.

I don't think that most Protestant churches realize that they are the daughter's of their mother, the Catholic church. The daughters keep the traditions of their mother without realizing where their mother's tradition's came from. Even though they've protested against their mother's evil ways the daughter's have still held on to the traditions her mother taught her.

Seven Abominations to Yahweh.

While I agree that the practice of homosexuality is clearly forbidden in the scriptures, I always find it interesting how the church seems to neglect the other things that Yahweh hates. Proverbs 6:16. Homosexuality is not even listed. Imagine your same message only inserting Haughty eyes where you have placed lesbian lifestyle. Does it grieve us as much if someone were to have the nerve to be "disdainfully proud" and expect the church to give them a pass? What if someone came out of the closet and told us they were "scornfully arrogant", would we shockingly wave our finger at them?

Are we equally as vocal to those who fill the church pews with their arrogant, proud hearts? Do we scorn the wicked lifestyle of one who sows discord among brothers/sisters?

Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that make haste to run to evil, a false witness who breathers out lies, and one who sows discord among brothers, these are an abomination to him also.

While I agree sin is sin and repentance is turning away from sin by refusing the temptations to satisfy the flesh, perhaps we'd have fewer people turning to homosexuality as a way of dealing with the pain inflicted from all the other abominations no one seems to give a hoot about.

Dictatorship of the Highest Kind

"And the vessel he was making of clay was spoiled in the potter's hand, and he reworked it into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to do. Then the word of YHVH came to me: 'Oh house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter has done? declares YHVH. Behold, like the clay in the potter's hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel. ' "Jeremiah 18: 4-6

Yes I think he can. He's YHVH. The Creator. We are the created. Jeremiah spoke specifically to these people at that time, but I'm sure that YHVH is the same today as He was back then. He gets to have all the control. He gets it because He's YHVH....HE'S YHVH....YHVH. Please understand this. He gets to do what He wants. It's His clay. If you read the passages following this passage, you'll see that He can take a nation or kingdom and change His plans for them. His plans to prosper that nation/kingdom can change, IF it does evil in His sight. From verse 10, "and if it does evil in my sight, not listening to my voice, then I will relent of the good that I had intended to do to it."

There it is. He is King. Kings get to do what they want. The potter gets to make what He wants. It's not a democracy, it's a dictatorship. He gets all the power. Does this upset you? It shouldn't. If it does, then get to know your King.

Or maybe start listening to what He want's from you.

Prosperity Gospel according to Job

JOB 2:9,10 "Then his wife said to him, "Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die." But he said to her, 'You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this Job did not sin with his lips."

This verse addresses the prosperity gospel that prevails some ministries I've seen.

This defines the prosperity gospel: the gospel that is shouted from all kinds of "Christian" evangelists claiming that Yeshua came to give us LIFE - the abundant life - life more full than we can imagine. Meaning, usually, that we deserve to be free from all that is negative, or that the kingdom riches are ours for the taking. Some times this me$$age morphs and become $tatements to "claim" pro$perity. Also know as the "name it and claim it" go$pel. Applied to health, wealth, and devil harassing immunity, users of this gospel encourage all to chant one's claim to a rich life; most times, twisting out of context scriptures like Ephesians 1:17-19.

Ephesian reads "...that the Elohim of our Yeshua, the Father of glory, may give you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of him, having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power toward us who believe, according to the working of his great might..."

If we deserved to be free from all that is negative, someone should have told Job, Paul, Joseph, David, Stephen, Abraham, Lot and his family, Daniel, uhmmm Yeshua. Isn't it obvious? The scriptures don't have any examples where "claims" brought a better life. Moses made claims to Pharaoh, claims that YHVH told him to make and it didn't go so well. After leaving cucumbers and dates in Egypt, he spent traveling 40 years, in the desert. I wanna go home, I wanna go home - pray harder Mo, rebuke the devil more!

Perhaps positive thinking didn't come fast enough for Rack, Shack and Benny*. They were tossed into the fire. Fried.

No, our lives are not easy at times. The rain falls on both good and evil. I really appreciated Job's reply to his wife. Should we receive only good from God? Should we not receive evil? Receive evil? Wow, that's a test. Amongst all the evil, allowed by the Father, can we receive it and NOT sin by cursing HIM. Countless times I've heard "how the devil is attacking me" or "I rebuke you Satan, for causing __________ (fill in the blank) in my life". Does Satan really have that much power? We give him way more credit that he deserves. Missing an opportunity to be molded by YHVH, a misplaced accusation of blame could in fact be a loving rebuke from the Father. I know that there are times, as with Job, that Satan is given access to us and Paul says to be aware of your adversary in 1 Peter 5 so that we don't sin. Cursing YHVH is a sin.

I ponder this. There is nothing in my life that YHVH hasn't allowed, good and evil. Job made me think about my role as a wife. Would Jim say I speak as a foolish woman who curses YHWH when evil comes a knocking? Can I receive evil and not curse YHVH? May it be so!

Lingering for the last day of Sukkot

Here we are having our last sleep in the Sukkah. The boys and Jeremy and Dad had a rousing game of Farkle before bed. Owain and I tried to snuggle and get a jump on the shut eye. It didn't work to well. Yes the two dogs were sleeping with us.

We had a clear night so we could see his handy work in the sky above and the coyotes graced us with some rather odd singing. All in all a great night. I can't wait to celebrate this festival in Israel with Yeshua.

Special guests in our sukkah

Here we are having supper in the sukkah. At night we remove the patio furniture and put our beds in. We really have to make our beds every night and every morning. After dinner we took turns reading Zechariah 14 and Psalm 105.

The Fall Feasts

Hi there,

Spent our first day in our Sukkah or Booth. It felt more like a greenhouse and I more like a tomato. As the day started cold, and ended warm, very warm in the sukkah. I will post pictures as we move along. I forgot tonight to take any.

I love the feasts. Today we discussed Zechariah 14. How when Yeshua, the King is ruling in Jerusalem we will go there to celebrate this festival with them. Today we stopped to imagine our own booth, in Israel, during the time Zechariah is talking of, knowing the King of Kings is there with us. WOW, what a celebration this will be. It puts in my heart a reason for joy. It makes me want to celebrate with a purpose. How lucky we will be to celebrate this with our Messiah! I love you YHVH.

Mount Moriah and a Sacrifice in Thorns

Just learned an amazing thing listening to Joe Amaral's video on 100 Huntley Street. I've spent a few hours pouring over the scriptures checking it out, being a good Berean, and I'm in tears. This God we serve is so incredible. He is always giving us understanding and glimpses into what He's going to do and what His plan is. When Yeshua became the Passover lamb for each one of us, he fulfilled all the requirements of what was prescribe for the animal sacrifice. He was without blemish, a first born, no broken bones, just to name a few details . When Yeshua gave up his life as our atoning sacrifice, a crown of thorns was placed on His head, He was placed on the wood, and sacrificed on Mount Moriah. Mount Moriah is the known as the area where the temple mount is located and is not really mentioned directly in the gospels. I had no idea that it was Mount Moriah area where Yeshua was sacrificed. Now Joe Amaral points out the event back in Genesis when Abraham is tested by our Father, to take his only son to the mount that the Father chooses. He directs Abraham to take Isaac to the mountain named Moriah. It takes him 3 days to get there, and then Abraham and his son take wood and a knife and fire to head up to mountain, just the the two of them. His son inquires where is the LAMB is that is to be offered. Abraham tells him that God will provide for himself the LAMB for the offering. Just as Abraham is about to kill his only son, an angel calls to him to stop. When Abraham lifts his eyes he sees a male ram. This lamb has it's head caught in a thicket and instead of his son, the lamb is killed. Are you starting to see the parallels? A father and son, a sacrifice, a lamb, God's provision sacrificed on wood, a crown of thorns on a lamb that is slain, a sacrifice of a substitute lamb on the mountain named Moriah, seed of Abraham saving his people, covenant fulfillment foreshadowed. Isn't this wonderful, so wonderful it makes me cry with amazement. You are wonderful Father, I love you. Our Father is amazing and tells His story with perfect details, letting us in on what He has done, what He is doing and what He will do.

Mainstream Christian Show Teaches about the Holy Days

This is exciting. For me it is. 100 Huntley Street, a Canadian mainstream Christian television show is hosting Joe Amaral from First Century Foundations. He's teaching about the importance of and Yeshua's fulfillment of the scriptural Holy Days.

I've posted most of the video clips on my youtube channel.

Praise the Father for giving a platform to teach these truths.

Dialogue, Dinosaurs, and Defense

I recently tried to have a conversation with a fellow believer that didn't really go anywhere, which was very disappointing to me. What was so disappointing for me was that this believer had no interest in exploring, through conversation the possibilities that we, in our dialogue, could sharpen each other, and in effect know our Father that much better.

The conversation began over a magazine cover that talked about Mars, and the possibilities that life could have existed on the planet. The topic of time, as in the earth and the universe being billions of years old, came up. I declared that I didn't believe that the earth was as old as the secular scientists were claiming. After a few of my theories were toss into the pot of conversation, this believer polite closed off the topic with a statement, similar to this, " I am fine with not understanding everything there is to know about God. I don't have the need to know."

Okay, I thought, so what then? Let's talk about... hmmm dinner? It's dinner time yes let's move on to something else.

That was it. Our conversation ended without going anywhere except down.

This is why that bugged me. Why is it so "taboo, difficult, uncomfortable, boring" to talk about reconciling the apparent differences with the secular worldview, and our scriptural worldview.

Why is this believer disinterested in engaging conversation that may have two opposing sides. Defending our faith, our religion, our worldview is not something that we need to be afraid of, rather the opposite is true. We need to learn how to tackle these "apparent" biblical problems, together so that we have an answer for those who ask us why we believe what we believe.

When our children begin to move out from our wings, into the world, they will encounter may unbiblical worldview that, unless prepared, will knock them off their foundation.

I want to make sure that I and my children, will have at the very least, had a conversation about dinosaurs, the scriptures and how we as believers reconcile their existence.

Aren't we supposed to love the Father with all of our heart, soul, and MIND?

For the record, I believe in a young earth, about 6 thousand years old, and I think dinosaurs are in the bible. If you care to engage me in a conversation about this, come on over and I'll put on some tea. I promise still to love you if you don't agree with me, as I expect you will still love me if I don't agree with you. (It's okay to defend your beliefs, really it is)

Passover

We do things a bit differently. We consider this to be the first month in the scriptural calendar. Yes going against pretty much all the calendar's going in relation to the Torah and the moon and sun, the signs in the heavens. Because of this we celebrated Passover and today is the first Day in the Feast of UnLeavened Bread. It was nice to celebrate this with close family. Actually we had two passover's (if you can do that) one with immediate family members and another with some friends. We had a great time. Wishing everyone a blessing in this season of remembering. May the Father come quickly and start our Exodus from this world, full of lawlessness. I want to be free from the leaven in my life so that I can be free to enter into the kingdom more fully. Thank you my King for covering me and washing me with your blood. You are the Lamb who has taken away the sin of the world. You are my king. I will serve you and love you. May my heart prove to be worthy. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Have someone pray for you, really pray.

I've been battling, rather succumbing to depression as of late. The last year has been quite the ride. I feel like I've been on the t.v. reality show "Wipe Out" only this is not for entertainment. I'm living the real wipe out "show". Slowly like the frog in the cold pot, that slowly gets heated and eventually dies, I've been getting more and more depressed. I began crying at odd times, and angry most of the time, wanting so much for my heart's cry to be heard. I knew in my head that the Father heard my cry and He witnessed my descent into misery. I couldn't seem to communicate to my husband how I was feeling, without coloring the words with the hint of "leave me alone". This of course is the last thing I really wanted but my husband and I can't seem to communicate on this level. My sister "heard" my cry and came to give me hope. She spent the most part of last Sunday, cleaning my house, helping me sort through stuff, and best of all inspired the rest of my family to come together. Her best present to me, though I really did need the help cleaning, was knowing that she was "waring" in the spiritual realm for this depression to unhook it's grasp on me. Two evenings she did this prayer. I am so thankful for her gift because my husband and I also had a break through. He "heard" my heart and my cry and rather than responding to the outer communication, he "got" that I needed unconditional acceptance AND that he needs to be the one who ministers the Father's heart to me. He is pledging to be my pastor, my head, my protector. We love each other so much, and now, because of the answered prayer, the grace of my Father, the blessing of a spirit filled family member not only do I feel hopeful, I feel free, joyful and optimistic about life. True life, comes from my incredible God. I am peaceful because He who loves me, promises to carry out all His promises.

It occurred to me that His promise is that if I follow him, goodness and mercy will follow me, his child, all the days of my life. Why then, would He give me a husband who needs equipping and help on how to love me, not give him that help. Of course he would! He will give Jim all that he needs to help minister to me, so that I receive the healing I obviously need. He will give Jim all that he needs to help release me from past hurts, so that I can walk in freedom. I trust that the Father will speak to Jim, and also I trust in Jim's relationship with the Father.

I love God. He IS a good God.

How the Kings Lived

I have chosen to live out my faith in the creator God and his only begotten son Yeshua a little differently than most. I believe that the old testament and all it's instructions is still relevant to God's children. I don't believe that when Yeshua died on the cross that that meant the entire law of Moses (as it commonly referred to in scripture) was laid to rest. For this seemingly bizarre stray from mainline "Christianity" I have been subjected to some persecution. While not enjoying the persecution, it has caused me to delve back into the scriptures to see for myself that how and what I believe is scriptural.
Okay, now for what I wanted to comment on, the scriptural reference to my path that I'm on. I've been trying to read through the entire scriptures again and I'm reading in 1 & 2 Samuel and 1 & 2 Kings. Here's what I've notice. Each king that is chronicled is NOT remembered for their personal contribution to the people they rule over. Each king is NOT remembered for the infrastructure built while in power, or for the cities that they've acquired or for the wealth gained or lost during his reign. What each king IS noted for is their return to or straying away from the commandments of Yahweh. The terminology used in the scripture is this: "so and so"king did evil in the sight of the Lord and worshipped the gods of the people" and "so and so" king did what was right in the sight of Yahweh.
One king is noted for their evil deeds and the other for their righteous deeds. Evil is equated to worship and the ways of the nations, righteousness equated to return to Gods ways and His commandments.
This pattern repeats throughout the first (old) testament. The prophets warn the people of Yahweh to return to His ways; I'm thinking of Ezra as just one example. It's one of the main themes of the scriptures.
So here is my question: Why would a loving God, throughout the first (old) testament turn his back on his children who turn their backs on Him by forsaking his ways, then declare in the second (renewed) testament that it really doesn't matter what you do? Why would He suddenly change history really, change his mind and not care about how His children live out their faith.
Yeshua came and fulfilled the promise made to Abraham, the seed that would save the world. Through Yeshua's atoning blood we are rendered innocent of breaking these commandments. Are we only to keep his commandments in our hearts? (that's another blog)

Here is an analogy I've come up with to help explain. Please keep in mind when reading this analogy that approaching the Father is not the issue. Coming into the Father's presence is not what I'm describing. The only way to be declared innocent of breaking the rules is by the "blood of the lamb". I'm addressing the rules themselves, the commandments. With that in mind I will continue with my analogy.

There is a family with one son. He is given the commandments of the house; the house rules. All those who belong to this house are required to the best of their ability to keep the house rules. When the son decides not to keep the house rules and chooses to follow foreign "rules" that the son has learned from his neighbours, His father is not pleased. His father warns him to return to the original house rules, but he does not. Eventually the son is told to leave the house. He has moved far away, following the ways of the neighbours. When the son comes home and wants again to live under the protection of the Father, he repents and promises to keep the house rules. He wanders again, back to the ways of the neighbours and his father again gives him consequences. This cycle repeats.

According to what mainline Christianity teaches this is what happens next in my analogy.

In the neighbourhood there is another son from another family, who hears about the house of the Father. He decides that he wants to be a part of this wonderful home. This is good news for the Father because he has always had an open door policy. Any one could come live in His house. This neighbourhood son comes to live in the house and as long as he's there he doesn't have to keep the house rules. Well not all of them. This newly adopted son has to only love the Father, but the other rules, well they are not that important any more. The other rules are just for the first son, not the second son. Okay, maybe if the original son returns, then he doesn't have to keep the rules either. The rules that were in place, now the Father considers, are obsolete and irrelevant. What was I thinking, says the Father. No one can keep these rules, so I will just toss them to the wind. I will blanket all children living in this house with grace, so whenever they break, whatever rules they chosen to follow, I will just forgive them and we'll all be happy. I don't really care anymore if they worship me in the ways of the neighbours, because, well, at least they are still worshipping me. I know in the past that I've said that I hate this blended worship, but things have changed. It doesn't matter what I said to my original child, even if I did say forever, I didn't really mean it.

In this ending to the analogy the Father would, in my opinion be, cruel. The Father, who is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow is really not the same. If he can change the rules of the house, at will, how will we ever know what he expects of us. And the poor first son, who lived with consequences of the Father's rules. He was kicked out and left to the ways of the neighbours, for breaking the Father's rules. He is to find out later that the adopted son didn't get any consequences from straying from the house rules. The adoptive son is held to a lesser standard than the first son. If I were the first son, I would feel ripped off. An adoptive son gets relatively no consequences and the original son get dispersed to the neighbours. Hmmmm!


I don't believe that this is what the father has done. I think the analogy ends like this:
The father has grieved that his first son has left the protection of the father's house, but because the son did not want to honour the "rules" he had to give him consequences. The father never "lifts " the rules. The adoptive son, who wants to come live in the wonderful house of the Father, is required to follow the house rules too. (Remember that the way to forgiveness from disobeying the rules is not the issue, but the rules themselves) The rules are the same. If the adoptive son wants to live in the same house as the original son, then the adoptive son doesn't get preferential treatment. The same rules apply. The Father is fair, righteous, and it's clear what is expected from all children living in the same home.

It makes more sense to me that the Father of the house, no matter who has come to live in the home, requires all his children to follow the same "rules". All children in the home are forgiven of the SAME RULES by the same way, which is through the sacrificial blood of Yeshua.

New Moon

Recently on a field trip to the Wilson Coulee Observatory, I was reminded of how magnificent our God is. He created the firmaments of the earth and the stars of sky. Every celestial object in space, is in it’s place, because He decided where it would go. One of His specially placed objects is our moon.

While not knowing all the reason’s why He choose to place this round rock where He did, the scriptures, however, are clear about one of the reasons. According to Genesis 1:14-19, it is how our Father marks time. It is God’s calendar. The moon marked the days and years for Adam and Eve and for every generation of God’s children after them.

For example, God’s lunar calendar is used to mark the first Passover (Exodus 12). A festival celebrated on the fourteenth day of the first month. Why the fourteenth day of the month? The fourteenth day of a lunar month is the time when the moon is full and shines the brightest. This extra light would have benefitted the exiting Hebrew’s of the original Passover as they travelled into the wilderness; a sort of heavenly flashlight. Yahweh is so cool.

Passover, Coming soon

I am starting to clean the house a bit. A little here and there, whenever I get the chance. In between schooling, sanding vents, and regular life, I'm trying to get ahead to clean house for upcoming Passover. Okay I know that it's a little ways away, however I don't have a lot of extra time to get to the deep cleaning my house really needs. (As I type, I'm thinking that the Father is telling me something. Listen again to my statement. "I don't have a lot of extra time it get it the deep cleaning my house really needs") Does my house need some deep cleaning? I need to take the time so that He can do some deep cleaning. Hmmm...now He has my attention. I like when this happens. Of course now I have to be prepared to be deeply cleaned. Yikes, sometimes that's not so much fun.

Okay back to my original thoughts. I am thankful that our Father is a teacher who likes to get us to use all of our senses when we come to meet with him. Tactile learners. What I mean is that, Passover preparation means that I get to search over my home for the leaven, literally. Some how the physical act of going through things like cupboards, drawers and pantries gets my mind into gear about Yeshua's references to leaven and sin. I usually end up asking myself, as I'm wiping the pot and pan cupboard, if there is any sin in me? Is there anything in my life that could use the blood of the Lamb to take it away. I love how He uses the concreteness of an activity to solidify, the spiritual.