Have someone pray for you, really pray.

I've been battling, rather succumbing to depression as of late. The last year has been quite the ride. I feel like I've been on the t.v. reality show "Wipe Out" only this is not for entertainment. I'm living the real wipe out "show". Slowly like the frog in the cold pot, that slowly gets heated and eventually dies, I've been getting more and more depressed. I began crying at odd times, and angry most of the time, wanting so much for my heart's cry to be heard. I knew in my head that the Father heard my cry and He witnessed my descent into misery. I couldn't seem to communicate to my husband how I was feeling, without coloring the words with the hint of "leave me alone". This of course is the last thing I really wanted but my husband and I can't seem to communicate on this level. My sister "heard" my cry and came to give me hope. She spent the most part of last Sunday, cleaning my house, helping me sort through stuff, and best of all inspired the rest of my family to come together. Her best present to me, though I really did need the help cleaning, was knowing that she was "waring" in the spiritual realm for this depression to unhook it's grasp on me. Two evenings she did this prayer. I am so thankful for her gift because my husband and I also had a break through. He "heard" my heart and my cry and rather than responding to the outer communication, he "got" that I needed unconditional acceptance AND that he needs to be the one who ministers the Father's heart to me. He is pledging to be my pastor, my head, my protector. We love each other so much, and now, because of the answered prayer, the grace of my Father, the blessing of a spirit filled family member not only do I feel hopeful, I feel free, joyful and optimistic about life. True life, comes from my incredible God. I am peaceful because He who loves me, promises to carry out all His promises.

It occurred to me that His promise is that if I follow him, goodness and mercy will follow me, his child, all the days of my life. Why then, would He give me a husband who needs equipping and help on how to love me, not give him that help. Of course he would! He will give Jim all that he needs to help minister to me, so that I receive the healing I obviously need. He will give Jim all that he needs to help release me from past hurts, so that I can walk in freedom. I trust that the Father will speak to Jim, and also I trust in Jim's relationship with the Father.

I love God. He IS a good God.